When Vision meets technical ineptitude

I have just spent the last 2 hours trying to make a spinning logo in after effects, illustrator, and photo shop for my proposed new updated web page.  We have reached the gulf of massive vision meets technical ineptitude!  I am not sure I want to try to re-learn all of this stuff.  I find myself slowly slipping into the attitude of what ever happened to a pencil and a piece of paper???  I mean really write it down pass it along, not so complicated it worked great for hundreds of years. now here we are 21st century shit looking at all this technology that quite frankly by the day is passing me by and further disenchanting me. Yet  I'm sure of the fact I need this thing.  I need it, with all of the maddening controlling nature of my critic/ego  needs.  It needs to match the vision at least a little bit. I'm just not sure how I bridge that gulf...

What is in a name

There is this thing that happened to me, O i think it was back in 2005 or so when i was addressed as Chris Novus completely out of confusion due to my web page name Novus Arts.  Initially I didn't feel the need to correct the poor guy and sitting here today I'm glad I didn't.
It morphed into the amalgamation of my first and Last name C.S. and threw in the Novus cause thats what I wished to remain "new" never resting on what I had done. Only looking at the now what I'm about to do shyt.  An attempt to make sure that I did what I ment and needed to be "new" fresh and cutting edge, at all times! 

I spend some time tonight doing that most of egotistical activities as googling all of my incarnations to find out what my placement in the google stratusphere looked like. (like you have never done this)

What I found out much to my surprise is that I have branded in the purest sense of the word, "branded" myself C.S.Novus.  I am him. Whomever that is, I am that guy!  Under my given name sure there are articles and musings some me some not, but somewhere in the last 8 years I have become the one the only C.S. Novus...Sure there are many Chris Schelling in this world we all share a name, but there is only only one C.S.Novus! I'll be damned if it didn't strike me like a bolt that I had done something! I'm not just another chris schelling floating around in the world,  I AM C.S. Novus the one the only the enigmatic artist, that is me! Good for me for being crazy and bold and doing something short sighted that in this day of self recognition I might stand up and say hey, that is me that C.s. Novus with a facebook, that C.S.Novus with a twitter, soundcloud, etc. that is me and shit I'm proud of it.

Damn Happy to be C.S!

Adored

My word I can't put my brain around, just struck me between the eyes.

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Time for some work to get done.

Fallow periods

In my cycle as an artist I have endured many of what I call fallow periods.  In my most recent period,  think I made 2 what I'll call major works over the period of about a year and a half. Today I set out to deep clean my art spaces in preparation for a full-time full on blitz of creativity. I decided I had to fix the mess before I could make it deeper. In my excavation of my studio space I am running into dozens of small sketches and scriblings.  I think I now have to rethink what I thought of a fallow.  Perhaps its more like a gestation period, where i laid in contemplation and self preservation.  Feels good to know that even in the dark night of the soul the little flame keeps burning, waiting to be fuled and SHINE.

After the roar!

As a painter who lives on the picture plane and revels in the flat surface, I have to admit I was very excited to watch a motorcycle rip through the plane.  Very interesting to see.  Although just getting there was a happening in its own right, glad I made the trek.

Slowly sinking in

As I sit here contemplating my upcoming work day, it hit me!  I think the first 3 weeks of my new/renewed life as human the artist where steeped in a deep recovery and misunderstanding of what I had actually done. I quit my career as retail manager and restarted back on my path of artist/magician/warrior.  I'm still unsure how this all goes, but what has become very clear is an opportunity like this fleeting, I best not waste it. I feel a responsibility to rise up and do my work with clarity and vigor.  I also feel a deep debt of gratitude toward my wife and children to allow such shenanigans. Life is scary anyway might as well make it interesting too!!